LOVE , LIFE and WORK

"LOVE COMES TO THOSE WHO WAIT" I guess this has never been effective for I never have enough patience for things.I always have this dillema that I'll get old alone without no one to cuddle to.What else would you expect ,I've been struggling for almost 5 years working too damn hard so that I can get all I want and fulfill my responsibilities as a mah….even if sometimes im always scolded by my mom for not saving enough moolah ,it has always been like that and will stay that way I guess..I'm trying anyway but still I fail to do that.I have read an article saying that it's ok to spend as long as there's next payday to look forward to..hahahaha…that I cant comment that much.Im not good at it anyway.I guess im not even good in expressing what I really feel now.To tell u frankly,im empty, I don’t know how I feel and what to feel .Before I thought that getting out of this country will make a difference,that I'll find someone there who will fill this emptiness ,I actually did but that didn’t last,I had 15 relationships in the past if that’s what u call a relationship ,some are good ,some are not and some just dissapeared just like that.."NOTHING's PERMANENT EXCEPT CHANGE" .I did change (here I am again,lolz)I guess,more stronger but still bubbly I guess…How I wish that I could be bella and I have one edward with me…but that remains to be a wish…it will always be ME,MYSELF and I …♥♥♥